Thursday, September 17, 2009
well I made it thru my 2nd round of chemo, and it was much better, thanks to better meds (that actually worked with out giving me chemo headache -imagine that) and to much prayer and fasting. The women at my church prayed and prayed and went with out food praying for me while I endured chemo. Thanks to all of you that have been praying, it helped. CHemo is so strange, I cant really explain it, but like I said before, your body just basically shuts down for a week , and all I do is sleep, and maybe eat. My mind can not line up thoughts, so I just have mummbled thoughts going thru my head each day, nothing seems normal, and no matter how hard I try I cant get my life to be or feel normal. a + b = zomph or something like that a + b does not equal c. It is so strange walking around in life, but nothing making sense, you are so sick you stop existing really. I am not a wife or a mom or a human, I am just shut down, and I can not unshut myself until day 8 when I come out of a fog and feel a little human and normal, but those days 3-7 I feel like I will never feel normal or human again, that is the lie. Well tonight my best friend for 25 years is coming LaLenna to help me be brave and go do chemo again tomarrow, I am so glad she is coming to help, I feel courage when she is with me that I can do this another time.